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SO IT’S JUDE’S AND MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

bozrat:

//dies i wanted to draw an awesome drawing for our anniversary but I procrastinated and now I’m just can’t seem to draw anything for it //OTL

anyways still wanted to share today with you guys

cause ah man, yeah..Jude’s just become this really important person in my life and ughh bby thanks for sticking with me for a year already

I hope there’s many more happy years to come <3

ugh now I’ll lay on the floor and have the sappiest feels for my gf.
She’s just really great guys, just one of those people that literally did change who I am into someone closer to who I wanted to be. And putting that into such simple words feels so weird, cause it just doesn’t even come close to the magnitude I feel and know behind those words.
One day, I hope I can write/talk/draw all about it, cause it just really is something extremely important to me. 

ANYWAYS YER SUPER AMAZING AND GREAT JUDE BBY

THANKS FOR DATING SUCH A LOSER LIKE ME, IM TRYING SUPER HARD NOT TO BE A LOSER, NOTICE ME SENPAI

But your my loser senpai. Forever my loser senpai.

Just kidding

But seriously, my brain’s coming up with nothing atm so I’ll just say that it’s been a TERRIBLE TERRIBLE YEAR WOW LOOK WUT I GOT STUCK WITH SHE’S SO CUTE AND GROSS AND CUTE AND SOMETIMES IDK IF SHE’S OKAY OR NOT SHE KIND OF SOUNDS LIKE SHE’S DYING AND SHE FORGETS TO BREATHE AND TBH WE TALK TO EACH OTHER LIKE WE’RE PUPPIES OR SOMETHING. It’s just really disgusting.

Oh wow, thanks for the reply! It means a lot to me. The rest of what I said was similar to: I see gals more for poly relation. & if I was in a relation. w/ a guy, I would have a mono relation. Is that unethical? But you pretty much answered everything. I just feel weird finding out that I might have interest in the same sex. Ppl either say or imply that I seem gay and it makes me feel weird. I don't like labels, I rather just be vague. So it's not strange to hear "I thought you were__" -Zippy
Anonymous

You know, when I was really young and used to have a very simple outlook on things I used to tick off my math teacher so much.

They’d give me an equation and tell me to solve it and you know what I would do? I’d put the same exact equation on the opposite side of the equal sign. Ofc I feel really bad now that I would do that to my teachers but to me it made so much sense! It is what it is! Awfully ironic how I’m using this example after saying that you’re not a math equation, but a person haha.

Sometimes the simplest way of defining yourself is saying ‘I am who I am.’ because no matter how right another person might think they are, they will never be more right than that.

I’ve known two genderqueer people who identified as lesbians (three if I count you?). One called herself a genderqueer woman, and the other person was non-binary but still used ‘lesbian’ for themself. Terminology is deeply personal and flexible.

Asy has spoken.

But no really, she’s writing a novel that explores gender identity amongst other things (she gets the greatest chapter reviews too as far as I’ve seen). It’s called Under My Skin and you should all go read it. Not only is Asy an amazing writer, she’s super cool too and that makes everything 10x better.

Howdy Jude. I was wondering(and this is a genuine question),when did you find out that you were interested in same-sex and polyamorous relationships? I ponder about this often, about myself. Many people confuse me as the opposite sex many times and have been asked bluntly if I was gay. And...I think I like dudes in a romantic way and gals more sexually.I thought about what it would be like in a poly relationship, but like... I feel like I would only do that with gals -Zippy (Cont.)
Anonymous

I feel like this was supposed to be a multi-part question, but this is all I got! So I’ll answer as much as I can from this. Please do consider that I am not an expert on these topics and what I know is from what I’ve been told and felt firsthand and no extensive research has been done. I will not claim to be right in my assertations, only confident that I have answered to my best ability.

Firstly, I’d like to say that sexual attraction and romantic attraction are entirely separate concepts. Who you fall in love with and who you want to sleep with aren’t always the same! Yes, for many people lots of times the two will overlap, but when exploring your sexuality and whatnot don’t tell yourself you’re strange if you don’t fit what you might believe is the ‘norm’.

It’s also okay if there are cases where you surprise yourself with your own preferences! The last person I dated came out to me as trans before he insisted we go our separate ways and although I identify as homoromantic and homosexual, the knowledge that he’s a guy didn’t suddenly turn me off to the idea of a relationship with him. And even there is another example! I identify as genderqueer so technically wouldn’t I not be a lesbian? I believe both right and wrong. Right because in technical terms I must be a woman who’s exclusively into women and I identify as nonbinary. Wrong because it’s what I feel describes me best and it’s what I would prefer to be considered. I say your personal opinion matters the most in this, of course as long as you’re not just bullshitting it completely. Many people might argue this, but really when there is no word left to describe you what do people turn to? Freak, weirdo, poser, indecisive, etc. And THOSE are definitely not true.

So always keep in mind too that although it’s great to have terms to identify with, your personal preferences define you and not what people want to call you. The only wrong thing to do is to deny who you are and what you feel just to fit a category. There is so much grey area when it comes to romantic and sexual attraction as well as things like gender identity! I think in the end what I’m trying to say is only you know what you are and lots of times it takes a lot more than just one word to describe yourself!

You’re not a math equation, you’re a person!

Also this is why we have umbrella terms. If you fit somewhere within there, that’s all that matters.

Now as for when I found all these things out? It was both little by little and all at once. When I was young? I knew. I knew, but I didn’t understand. And then I was told a lot of things about what I was and wasn’t and so I got confused and tried to be who people thought I should be. And even when I was still in denial about my gender identity, my sexuality, and my tendency for polyamory, I could still see it. I just tried really hard to say it was all something it wasn’t.

But everybody finds these things out at their own rate and their own time. If your story is different than somebody else’s it does not invalidate what you feel and who you believe you are.

I know I could have just directed you to a website about these things, and I will still recommend you do a bit of research of your own, but I also know that sometimes it matters a lot to hear the opinion of somebody else rather than read definitions.

But really, please remember that whatever I have said can and might be argued against and that I am in no way a reliable source as to tell you what YOUR situation entails, only my own.

ninjies:

my curse

ninjies:

my curse

I WANT DAGMAR AND EVERYONE TO LIVE //SOB

I decided that I will make a Happy AU where people are actually happy and don’t get murdered.

And Dagmar and Aravis grow old together and become grannies together.

But in canon? Nah. Everything is going to hurt.

Wow i went through so many answered asks to find the link to the brushes that I use. Sometimes it’s easy to forget all the things I’ve been through and all this amazing support I’ve had. Thank you bunches you lovely people!

What's your favorite brushes for photoshop?
Anonymous

Oh I don’t have photoshop! I do everything in paint tool SAI.

I literally only use two brushes, one for sketching, and then one for painting.

I answered another ask quite a while ago where I showed what I use, I’ll attach a link once I find it!

OKAY I FINALLY FOUND IT.

Your hair is really cool. Have you ever thought about dying it a wild color? You'd look like a real life anime character.
Anonymous

Oh man, thanks! I actually had it skunk hair for a while, but my hair dresser refused to bleach it again or color it and I was just like. Okay. Be that way. I really wouldn’t mind dying it but I have no idea what color I’d go for! Also that’s great though cause when I was in highschool everybody would tell me I looked like an anime protag haha.

sleppu:

hey *leans against wall* wanna ship our ocs *slips and falls*